NotThatWeird

I love you for every inch of your body and thought. I love every inch of that brain of yours. I remember those days when you wore your favourite scarf. Oh my. What a laugh. You kept telling me to buy one for myself. I didn't agree and I was so clumsy when I tried to speak to you. I couldn't speak because all I was thinking about was nothing. With you there, I couldn't do anything but laugh of how stupid I was thinking so much about you. I love the way you speak. The way you look at me. The way you frown when I speak. The way you joke about me liking you. The way, I think, you mean it. They way you don't mean it. They can ask you if they dont

Every piece of me hurts. I can not write. As much as I'd want. And I do not want. Tonight I decided to write.It's been a while. I write weird. Because that's how I talk. This has no beginning and no end . I can't call it a deficiency . I can not name it . About you all. I write about you. About each one of you. I look at you but I can't hear you. What I am about to write is not to be understood: I left the room and I never looked back . I gave my soul.. the soul . I abandonated it . When she slightly returns your gaze at times when you do not watch. When I get angry and no window in the world is dull enough to make me take my eyes off it and

you were so close to me that i could almost touch you...almost..i almost...reached you.. I stretched my fingers..but i was falling..and i stretched with so much love that i grabbed your hand for less than a second before falling...just for a heart-beat and then you let me fall lookin right into my eyes....but i was so happy...i am so happy..you held me.. everything is meaningless without you.But now you are laughing and holding someone else close..you dont love them..you just spend time with them.do that...hurt me..it doesnt matter because in that heart-beat..for a heart beat, you loved me.you still do.but nothing lasts forever and you are a

Nobody is going to be with you till the end.Nobody is going to love you.Nobody is going to love every single part of you.Nobody is going to kiss you till the end of time and not think of how over-rated you became.Nobody is going to see you as you want.If they are still going to see you that way then you wont.You will see through them..You will think of someone else.You will start caring..You will start looking for choices.You wont last forever because...nothing does.They dont care.They dont have to.Life's too short to care about the other.Dont give up and love every single bit of them because they will let you go before you will be done lovin

Plus I like being alone anyway. At least I make myself happy. Where are all my memories running? -leans against your body, shutting his eyes- nothing we do ever matters. we die. Oh how you grew up. I remember when I was able to watch you.. Now your looking the way you looked at me to someone else. Is not you anymore. I'm happy.Now your just a memory. Another one in my head. I will keep you alive just the way you were.Your safe. I wont forget you. You will be alive..more than you've ever been. And you will be happy too. More than you are now... Oh I cant express the happiness. Its not you anymore.. Its not you... I dont love you.. I dont know

I have nothing concrete to hang on to. Nothing. When I miss you I cant grab a letter or a find words that you wrote to me.You gave me nothing palpable.But yet, touchable. I have nothing to turn to.When I miss you...when I need to remind to myself that it was real...I have nothing but a vague memory that's fading away. I didnt write.I havent been writing anything at all.I keep listening to the same song.It stopped making sense.I kept replaying the same memory over and over again.That's all I have.I'm not sure if it makes sense anymore.Does anything in the end ? I told him that I need to catch your attention.I was nervious.I wanted to see if I

How can anyone love such a fragile human being ? What is to love about her ? They way she cries..silently...when you're gone for a few seconds and then you come back and find her crying..laying..on the floor..watching the nothingness.She might lose herself if I dont run towards her throwing myself into the void to grab her hand and bring her back. The way she's always tired ? They way she doesnt care about anything ? Why would you love such a creature? How she listens to sad music only to bring back memories..memories that hurt.. She loved to replay them..over and over again.. There was something about this girl and her memories.. Unfortunate

They say that after a while you are going to forget his or her eyes.. They say your losing it... They say your not..You can't forget those icy eyes that made you weak...that made you feel like you want to throw up your stomach..They say you can't forget your mothers eyes..They say you cant forget your first love's eyes.. I say you can..You can erase everything.The memories lose their intensity as the time goes by.. I know that.I feel that. But what about when you see those eyes again after a while ? What happens then ? I believe that then...then its the disaster. Then...the time stops..Everything stays still.You stop..You stop working, functi

" If I could..I would.. I would hold you in my arms and never let you go.. (Te-as tine in brate si nu ti-as mai da drumul..) Just like when you gave me that bracellet.. But this time I wont let you go... But not there.Not in that room.. " In that moment..there were 7 more lines to read but I couldnt...I didnt...I woke up. I woke up trying to see what those words meant..how they spinned on the white paper... I was dreaming...I was dreaming that we were talking ..that we were laughing..we still didnt understand why we never talked when you used to be here..I was dreaming that you're married.I was dreaming that you left...you left...you left me

She keeps me awake She keeps me alive The day I die Is the day She sais goodbye. I am not gonna ask why And I am not gonna cry I am not gonna try I am just going to close my eye. In reply...... You tell me you are going to find another I. Try. Lie. Sigh. Die. Cry. Goodbye.